I have this new blog site because my so called flesh and blood likes to cause drama and twist anything I say around and make it sound bad, and not in the funny way.
Sad it came down to that but it's life. =) Water off a ducks back.
Anyway, lets get crackin on posting.
I have this weird feeling, self hate, maybe regret, I'm not sure, I try not to let myself feel those two things. It only brings me down and I really try to be a happy person. I should be happy right now, everything is looking UP and I have some amazing friends, I guess it's true, you treat someone well and they will treat you the same way in return, but at the same time I feel like a few friends have and are taking advantage of me in the past week and I feel like it will come back and bite me in the butt. Than again, I let them for Lord knows what reason, it was stupid selfish wants on my behalf and in a way theirs. I hate letting people down and disappointing my loved ones and I know that if they found out it would disappoint them immensely and I don't know what to do. It would be the end of a lot of things if this got out.
Advice?
Anyone?
Ok maybe not.
I just need to think this through on my own I guess, it kind of sucks but thats life, you make mistakes and you learn from them.
I have a lot of learning to do.
Otherwise I have some cool friends that I wouldn't trade for anything and I'd do anything for them, I hope some of them feel the same way. It'd be nice to know I guess.
Anyway it's early but I'm exhausted. Good night and sweet dreams.
Stace
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